Red Headed Emotions

>I once saw this little red haired, red faced boy at a basketball game. He was straining against the harness that surrounded his torso to the extent that his entire body was stretched out like a ski jumper in midair, except that he was on his tip toes. And at the other end of the harness, attached to a long leash of sorts, was a red haired woman in an animated conversation, and every couple of seconds her body would lurch forward as though the little boy at the other end was a full-grown Great Dane out for his afternoon run. I’m sure for the mother, she much preferred the herky-jerky to chasing the little monster around the gymnasium, but for the rest of us it was a great source of amusement.

The reason I share this memory?

My emotions have red hair and are stretched out like a ski jumper. I lurch from time to time.

My heart is judgmental and cruel and twisted. My emotions are on a harness.

Like the mother mentioned above, if I don’t keep my feelings on a leash they are bound to run wild and the resulting damage could be embarrassing, hurtful, and irreparable. I don’t want to cause harm to others or myself by letting my sentiments go AWOL and swath an ugly, bloody path. I refuse to let judgment, frustration, misunderstanding, criticism, and contrived conspiracies litter the trail I leave behind.

My emotions have been given to me and not the other way around. One of the fruits of the Holy Spirit listed in Galatians 5:22 is self-control, and because it has been deposited in me, I choose to let that be the ruling force–the leash between my rebellious feelings and my wanna be, trying to be grace-full self.

Yes, I might be seen moving forward in a herky-jerky fashion or lurching tensely every now and then–less often on my better days–but I take comfort in knowing that “the Spirit helps us in our weakness” (Romans 8:26).

Negative emotions left unharnessed are not harmless. So, I lean on Him once again and know that this season will pass, lessons will be learned, and I’ll emerge stronger and more secure in Grace.

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3 Responses to “Red Headed Emotions”
  1. Stacey Otremba says:

    Great job!!! We ar very proud of you. Keep up the good work. Love you
    Mom & Dad

  2. Jamie Bucher says:

    does this have anything to do with what was all said at my house?

  3. Amanda O'Tremba Oster says:

    No, this has nothing to do with our conversation. A small tidbit of info–look at the date of this blog. It was before we went to Twin.

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